I’ve been seeking to write about the experience I had in Kenya in the last weeks. There are so many things to say, and I got stuck in wanting to describe everything. As I cannot say everything in one article, I’ll tell you about my biggest takeaway.
The rest you’ll be going to hear it on the podcast I’ve recorded with Mona. It will be live on the blog on Monday, June 10. If you don’t want to miss it subscribe to the newsletter here.
One of the things I’ve discovered about myself in the last years is that freedom is an important part of who I am. One part of this freedom comes from traveling, taking new adventures, and stepping out of my comfort zone. Another part comes from having my own ideas, making decisions that I believe will enhance my life, and saying no when I need to keep my integrity.
These things make me feel alive and free.
This trip has been the longest one I’ve been away from my home. I felt the anxiety long before I left, but I thought is something manageable. Well, it seemed I arrived in Nairobi and the feeling was nevertheless with me, no matter where I was.
I found myself at the moment I had to face and acknowledge the uncomfortable. It was obvious and I couldn’t avoid it anymore. I needed to gain clarity on the driving forces that were motivating my actions right there, in Kenya.
While I live for my own fulfillment, my own purpose, I also started to ask myself how can I be of service. I mean, I was there, doing the tasks that were given to me. But, instead of being focused on what it was needed from me at that moment, I was trapped in what I wanted to offer or what I thought I have to offer.
I even felt the fact that I am not good enough.
Acknowledging the fact that by not feeling enough was coming from past experiences, gave me access to new discoveries.
I started to ask myself – am I really present when my mind is wondering around about things that are not happening right where I’m? The answer was simple. No, I was not in the here and now. I was so far away from that.
Oh, and all day long, I was tired. What is striking about being tired is that at a certain point, I stopped resisting. When I surrendered, I started to see things the way they are. I was not anymore in a narrative created in my mind.
That was the time when I finally arrived. Not at the destination, but in the middle of the journey. Where the best everything happens. From that moment I started to see and connect with everyone, and the most important I started to feel good in my own skin.
Tunning myself into the present time revealed how much I need to dig deeper and not neglect what’s happening with me – not just in this situation, but in general. Of course, the big question arose, how can I be of service to others if I’m not of service to my own needs? What a paradox!
I’ve spent a great deal of time reflecting on this trip, which has influenced my life in ways that no other experience did.
The biggest takeaway is that what matters the most is how we show up in the present moment because that’s the only moment when we can be successful.
Now, ask yourself – how well do you serve yourself?
Love and light,